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Saturday, January 23, 2016

Talking about the Passion


  • : a strong feeling of enthusiasm or excitement for something or about doing something
  • : a strong feeling (such as anger) that causes you to act in a dangerous way
  • : a strong sexual or romantic feeling for someone

I've been thinking a lot about "Passion".  I have a friend that works over Tampa Bay Downs as a "hot walker" and is working on getting her trainer's license.  The intensity she has when talking about horses is laser focused.  She is up at 4 AM every morning to work with the horses, getting them ready for the day's races.  Working in the cold, the rain, the heat and humidity of the summer.  

At the end of the season here in Tampa she'll drive down to Miami, where they run all year round and start all over again.   All for the passion and love of horses and racing.

I have several interests.  We had a small garden out back at one time, growing our own fruits and veggies.  I read up on wine and foods and go exploring...trying different combinations, different cultures.  Frankly I was into craft beers and good food long before they became the staple of tv shows and could be found on every corner.

Soccer, at one time, was a passion of mine.  I watched it on Spanish language channels even though I did not speak Spanish.  I wrote about it, actually being paid by some websites to contribute material to them.  I didn't make much but for a while I was in fact, a paid sportswriter.  However as interest in the sport has grown, my interest has waned.  

At one time I was serious writer, and an rabid reader; reading whatever I could get my grubby hands on.  Wherever it be pulp fiction, hard fiction or some rare find.  I blame the Thief's Journal for several months of drunken debauchery in all it's glorious forms. I was a writer damn it and I was going to self destruct like all the great one's did. 

So in a way, it's sad to see the various stories that I've started not finished or revised wasting away either in my head or in various journals and files.  

I do love riding Kimmie, my beloved bike and writing about those adventures in my blog.  However that too, has fallen to the wayside as I deal with everything else in my life.  I have no passion for it anymore.  I am out of excuses.

My job I have no passion for, although it seems to be my ticket to a better and more fulfilling life.  I am, finally, where I want to be and doing what I have always thought I could do career wise.  

Is it any wonder that I look on with wide eyed wonder as she talks about horses and lip chains and "natural training" methods.  I used to have that passion about sport, writing, books, art, science and philosophy.

How did I let the world beat me down?

How does one rekindle that fire?  That Passion for life?   For living?

No, I'm not depressed.  I'm far from it actually, but I can not help but wonder where that wide eyed joy and wonder went to?

What does one do to reignite a flame?

Tuesday, January 19, 2016

This post has no title.

It's been awhile since I've posted something here.

The truth is that although their are a lot of things that engage my mind, comments that I want to make and things that I feel should be discussed...that takes time.  Something precious that I no longer seem to have.  To be honest with myself, their is little that has engaged me lately.

I'm not sure how and when my life became so "busy."  However with the lingering remnants of something that my doctor so elegantly referred to as "the krud" I thought I should at least sit down and try to write.  Even though my head is six times it's normal size and I'm dizzy whenever I try to stand up.

I shall soldier on.

Earlier today I came across an interesting article on NPR about the political divide in America.  If you take a look at this site or my FB page, you might see I lean to the left.

I'm actually okay if you disagree with me.  I'm okay if you're not supporting my party or candidate.   I'm not going to accuse you of "drinking the kool-aid", being a "moron" or worse.   What I might ask you to do is to engage me with facts, tell me how and why you believe what you do.  If your argument bears some resemblance to logic than I'll gladly engage you.  As long as you don't result to calling me names.

What's "some resemblance to logic" mean?  In other words don't tell me you're against gay marriage because you don't want them to butt fuck your dog.   I think that's fair enough don't you?

When you engage someone with an open mind and try to understand their point of view, then guess what happens?  You meet in the middle and reach some compromise that works best for all.  You don't get everything you want....but you don't lose everything either.

After reading that NPR article I posted the following comment:  I would argue that the media, all media, is to blame here as well. When you have Facebook that recommends only people that share similar interests and beliefs you're just reinforcing that viewpoint. When you have Fox News and the Daily Kos, your only reporting news from one side. Their is no more engagement, no more lively debate. I know I've engaged with several people on the right without us resulting into name calling...and although we may not of fully convinced each other that "our side is right." We do at least learn something from the other. Sadly it's much easier to call someone a moron and resort to stupid memes and lies, damn lies and statistics.

I should have added that in our 24 hour media environment that the only thing that makes a 30 second sound byte is the outrageous.  Thus the reason we see the Donald every 30 seconds on our TV screens.   There is simply no deep analysis anymore on the part of the general public.  Where people smarter 100 years ago before the invention of the internet and television?  Or even the radio?   No, not really, but I bet dollars to donuts that they were more fully engaged in the politics of their day.   Don't get me started on the consolidation of various newspapers, tv stations and other media companies.   The more the information is controlled the less of the story you actually here.

To a certain degree I do hope that both Trump and Sanders run as independents in the end.  I support Sanders but lets be honest, a self describe "Democratic Socialist" is going to have issues getting anything through Congress.   It's not from lack of trying but anywhere from 30 to 40% of the Republican party leans to the far right in my opinion.   I know a few that feel that they are "losing America" but can't define exactly what is being lost.     

An independent run by Trump forces the Republican party to "come to the center" where I still believe many Americans are.   In my opinion it would also force the Republican party to become more moderate by shedding the Tea Party groups and embracing more minorities.  A run by Sanders would hurt the Democratic party more than help it, but if he does get 10 to 30% of the vote, it creates a true third party movement in America.  It would also make our politicians review many entrenched positions they currently hold...because at least 1 out of 5 of there constituents voted for something like Universal Health care.

Third parties generally don't do well in the long run in American politics but they do serve a purpose and that "shaking up" of the status quo is never a bad thing.   It may also do something that is badly needed in america...actually get us to talk about what is truly wrong with this country....and how to fix it.   

Guess what....what is currently that "moronic right wing" plan just may do it.  That "libtard" plan might just do it.   Let's take the best of the two ideas and see if we can meet in the middle.

Saturday, January 2, 2016

So I finally saw Star Wars!

(Although the chances of you having NOT seen the new Star Wars movie yet are far warning I must tell you the following:)


Overall STAR WARS was not a bad movie.

It's been out for a while I know but I figured opening night be insane, then opening week.  I had somehow avoid spoilers so far...but it was getting harder to avoid them with each passing day.  I had gone so far to post this on Facebook:

So...I've still not seen Star Wars and have managed to avoid spoilers. I hope to see it sometime in the coming week. What should I do:
a) hide in a cave till I can see the movie?
b) live my normal boring life and start going "I can't hear you!" while plugging my ears and running away when someone starts talking about the movie.
c) where a shirt that says "Greedo shot first" and hope that distracts others from telling me about the new movie.
d) give into the dark side?

I knew that sooner or later I would have to see a spoiler, actually the first spoiler I saw was the twitter account of "Emo Kylo Ren".

However this is were my being social awkward when it comes to social media comes in handy.  I have a twitter account but have only ever tweeted twice.  I really see no reason for it and my mind works in more than 144 characters most of the time.

Personally before the movie, based solely on the trailers, I would have thought that Kylo Ren was a turned to the dark side Luke Skywalker. I was surprised to learn that he was the son of Han Solo and Leia.  Or that Han would die, although from what I understand it was at Harrison Ford's request.

It's fun to watch the old and the new blend, and J.J. Abrams did this once before with Star Trek.  There is a bunch of throw backs to the original film.  I personally loved how the targeting system from the original movies played out in the Millennium Falcon.  Finn's reaction to that is classic...and makes me wonder why Han never bothered to update the targeting system.

It's fun to watch Kylo Ren tear up a computer display when he gets bad news.  Or the humor in seeing a stormtrooper give into the mind control of the force a little to easily.  It is nice to see that their aim has improved over time.  Although truthfully, and this may be the age I am, I didn't sense any evil in Kylo Ren.  He doesn't have the gravity of Darth Vader.  His reactions to things, well fun to watch, just did not seem like the actions of a Sith Lord.

He seemed like a spoiled brat to me, which may be why Emo Kylo Ren is so popular on twitter.

I can see, why some people thought the movie "sucked" or did not live up to the original material.  However we need to remember something...the original movie was all the way back in 1977.  We have had a generation of children growing up who believe that Han did not shoot first.

Overall I enjoyed the movie and would see it again.  I loved how the movie blended CGI and live action beautifully.  Sure it's basically a retelling of the movie from why back in my youth (I was 11 in 1977) but guess what....I don't care.  It's what films of this type need to, wonderful, mythic.

Now if they will only make Kylo Ren more adult and less "emo" I'll be happy.